I love Washington. Its been an awesome trip and I'm so not ready for it to be over. Kiddo is fully walking now. She has 3 teeth and the 4th is coming in.

I am really loving life right now

"but with you I forget to feel the pain"

I used to be someone's world
..and I still don't know what happened...


Why won't you wake up and see what was in front of you?




I miss him more every day. I hate that I don't even have his voice in a voicemail.
...I still don't get why he hasn't called...

all i hear is the sound ice makes when water is poured over it

....seriously.....

I'd like my sadness to turn into anger already.
I'd like to not care.
I'd like to erase you from my memory.
..I'd like to matter to you for a change.

I swear I can hear my heart splinter

I'd like to know where I went wrong
I'd like to know why you let me try
I'd like to why you stopped loving me
...I'd like to know why I wasn't good enough

I wish walking away came easy for me too

What is the key to a lasting happy marriage?

Love..excitment..lust

Why do we always put it on the other person to make/keep us happy? Ultimately it's up to yourself to keep you happy. It's in no way your partners responsibility. If you can't make yourself happy, how do you expect someone else to make you happy? They don't insight into your head, they don't know your every thought...and when you don't let them in it makes it that much more difficult to even attempt to make you happy.
Your happiness is in your hands

Does no one get that a marriage takes work?!
Who you were when you met is not always you will be down the road. You have to grow together. Why does it seem no one is willing to fight for their marriage? ...Where does the passion go? Where does any of it go?

soldiers are a dime a dozen...a father and husband are hard to come by

I would have changed so many things.
Maybe it really is all my fault.
I could have been more understanding..a better listener..a better person

Why marry someone knowing their flaws but not loving them for their flaws
I'm sorry I'm me
..But could really imagine the world with nothing but "you"?

If anything I'm walking away with the best thing on Earth.
I have the love of my life..and you have yours.

..except in the end mine will hold my hand..and yours will just retire and replace you

I hope you're happy with your choice
just remember I never asked you to choose
I was always fine with being second

In a lyrics mood

"Gone For Good" The Shins

You want to fight for this love

But honey you cannot wrestle a dove

So baby it's clear

You want to jump and dance

But you sat on your hands

And lost your only chance

Go back to your hometown

Get your feet on the ground

And stop floating around

I find a fatal flaw

In the logic of love

And go out of my head

You love a sinking stone

That'll never elope

So get used to used to the lonesome

Girl, you must atone some

Don't leave me no phone number there

"Forever" Ben Harper

Not talkin' 'bout a year

No not three or four

I don't want that kind of forever

In my life anymore

Forever always seems

to be around when it begins

but forever never seems

to be around when it ends

So give me your forever

Please your forever

Not a day less will do from you

Don't worry...I won't be posting Kelly Clarkson haha

I wonder what you'd see if you could look in on other families.
Would the mother and father also have nothing to say?
Would the only thing in common be the fact that they created an amazing child?
..or would you see love? Happiness?...A smile?

What is it about Tiffany's that makes everything better? I feel refreshed, and can not wait until Tuesday when my new anchor necklace arrives :) Just walking into the store pumped life back into my body. Love it. It keeps my blood pulsing.

Ps. I am so ready for a new tattoo

My life wouldn't make it as a novel, but end up as more of a short story.

He asked, She said yes..and they had a beautiful girl.

Ok more like a sentence.


I've hardly talked to him, and he didn't want to talk to our daughter on the phone.
What is marriage anyways? Two people living under the same roof, trying to stay out of the others way.
I don't know what he does, who he talks to...or what he's feeling.
All I know is I'm feeling beat down. Saying "yes" to everything does not make a happy marriage. What happened to passion?! Or sex even?!


When did "I love you" become just a routine

If I were a romance novel

So after reading one of my favorite authors, Annette Blair, I got to thinking about what a sex scene from my book would be...

She walks into the room as he lays in bed turned to the wall snoring. She slides into bed and nuzzles into his neck and kisses him lightly...his snoring stops...he turns to her and says, "do you have any idea how late it is? Maybe you should have come to bed sooner"

End scene.

Which reminds me....Maybe I should head to bed :)